Memories.....

"Memories are a good thing." That quote was by J#1 this afternoon while we walked in the park near our house. We were talking about how when J#1 was two and he would ride his bicycle with training wheels while I pushed J#2 in the stroller we walked around that park many times. Good memories.....

I am blessed to be a mother of three healthy boys, that I GET to stay home and homeschool them. I am not saying all days are easy and flow right, most of the time not, but I have wonderful memories with them that I otherwise might not have if I had to work. The J-Boys are a gift from God, I always wanted to be a mom even at a early age. I truly did not know what it all entailed when I had my first son. It seemed different in my mind as a child when I played with my dolls or babysat as a teenager. Nonetheless I wouldn't trade it for anything. I can love my boys because God shows me how to do so, not just serving them i.e. taking care of their needs that is a way to love, but God says love them affectionately and tenderly. I read this great book "Feminine Appeal" by Carolyn Mahaney and it is a must read for all women. She breaks down Titus 2: 3-5 and talks in depth about the virtues that Paul describes for women in the Bible. It is truly humbling to read, especially the part about "Have you lost your smile?" referring to raising your children. I felt so much sorrow about moments where I feel like my face had been frozen with my eyes wide and my eyebrows raised with a clinched jaw, definitely not a look of love towards my children. Today, we smiled and laughed and really spent time together. My laundry was screaming and the dishes were calling. I walked away and packed a lunch for my boys and I and enjoyed them to the fullest today. We talked, I listened to the many questions they had. Yes, memories....it is a good thing.