I have been slacking in the blog department. I can't really say it is because I had a lot going on or that I didn't really have anything to blog about. So I don't have an excuse, but I will catch you up on a couple of things and try to be a better blogger from now on ;)
To sum up the whole "Master Cleanse" thing. Mechanic Man gets a thumb up, but I don't. I couldn't get past day two. I was crabby, cranky and hungry and for the sake of my children it was better I not be that way. If I decide to do something like that again I will have to send them away for the first three days. Mechanic Man on the other hand did it for four days. He did fine and lost 14 pounds. Right now he is working on maintaining his current weight and so far so good. I was not doing it for a weight loss more of a cleanse per say, but I think I might have to try a different way to cleanse.
The second anniversary of my mom's death was on the 21st. All of us went and spent the day with my dad, which by the way is doing well. I feel really different about this second year than the first. I think it kind of freaks me out to know that she has been gone for two years. I'm at the point where I am trying to remember how her voice sounds, but I am having a hard time or remembering a lot of specifics about her. I know that might sound weird, but I worry about it sometimes. I know that I have a lot of video recordings with her in it because she was pretty much at every event we would have recorded, but I can't bring myself to watch them yet. I feel like a wound that has a scab over it, but is not healed and if I watch them right now then it would be like ripping the scab and bleeding again. I feel the pain might be more than I could bear right now. So for now I look at pictures when I want to think about her and that is not as tough.
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Forgive me for forgetting the day that your mom left us. I'm sorry. I can't believe that was two years ago!
I've put all of the videos and phone messages that my mom left in a safe place. I've looked at them since she left and it's both a heartache and joy to see them.
14lbs???? no lie?? wow!
and as i read that about your mom i thought to myself if i could remember my mom's smell and voice etc. i think that is something we take for granted when they are here with us.
love ya girl! {{hugs}}
I started out thinking that my bro was full of poop then you had me teary-eyed thinkging of your sweet moma towards the end. You make my eyes water a lot you know. Love you!
I can spell the word, THINKING. I just get in a hurry and type.
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